but I never do.

SO, I’m getting married in 16 days. I’m all kinds of anxious, nervous, thrilled, and generally jittery, but at the same time, I’m kinda looking at it as a sort of formality. I mean, Amber and I already live together, and (at least on my part), there’s already that sense of lifelong commitment. The actual marriage is just saying so on paper to the state of North Carolina. I guess I’m nervous about the wedding the way a performer gets nervous before a performance, if the performer is also the director, producer, assistant set designer, and partial financier. 

On an unrelated note, I’m pretty disenfranchised with this whole college education thing. I mean, sure, I knew I was getting a pretty useless degree when I picked my major, but I though for sure that a college education would get me something better than my old job. Seriously, I’m jockeying for my old place on the sandwich line at McAlister’s, and right now, it’s looking like a viable career option. On the one hand, I would hate myself every day for earning a degree to wind up in the same place I was before I earned my degree, but on the other hand, I don’t hate the job, and the pay and benefits are pretty decent, considering. And I can always quit when/if something better comes along, right?